The last few years have been tough ones, and my educated guess is, I am not alone. Maybe you can relate to this: By the end of 2018 all my dreams we're wrapped in grave clothes and placed securely in a tomb. I had lost all hope. I was at a crossroads, do I continue in faith or cast it all aside: Give up completely?
I have been a follower of Jesus Christ since I was 3 years old. I've had my ups and downs over the past 50 years, and some of those were extreme low points, but I have never experienced the low I reached on October 3, 2018. In all those years, the lowest I ever reached was a place of turning my back to God, like a stubborn 2 year old, but never had I seriously considered completely walking away and calling it all quits. This is where I found myself on that day, "Do I keep going or walk away for good?"
Between the years of 2015-2018 I had experienced severe losses and traumas, each one landing precision blows to my dreams and the core of my being. I thought I had experienced loss before, but, this, this was different and like the proverbial camels back, I finally broke in two. I had a very serious decision to make, and time was up, the answer was being demanded of me: Do I continue?
HE REMAINS FAITHFUL
God's Word never fails: He promises in 2 Timothy 2:13 "If we are faithless, He remains faithful, for He cannot deny Himself." I was at the point of giving up, but He was not, is not, never will be.
I made the choice, and I am thoroughly convinced, it was His divine Faith working in me, to continue; I did not walk away, I just started over.
I decided to go back to the beginning, like a new born, alive in Christ for the very first time. I bought a new Bible, a new journal and even new pens, and there I began my journey with Christ once again.
Here's a picture of my first entry:
IT'S A NEW DAY
Perhaps you find yourself in the same position, the same cross roads, asking, do I continue? My sweet friend, God will NEVER, has never, nor will He ever, give up on you!
Today, is an opportunity to start over, begin anew, leave the old disappointments, trauma's and drama's behind and move forward. Like Dory in Finding Nemo, "Just keep swimming" and KNOW you're not alone!
God has marvelous dreams for your future! Death is not the end, it's a beginning! What do I mean by that? Sorrow brings us to a point of death. We quite literally, feel as though we have died. The point of our death is the beginning point of Christ: The resurrection and the life! He raises the dead to life!
Think about it!
GOOD THINGS ARE ON THE WAY ~ "He fills my life with good things, so that I stay young and strong like an eagle" Psalms 103:5
Your life is destined for GOOD things in Christ Jesus. He has plans to prosper you, to fulfill you, to reshape you into HIS glorious likeness. He loves you with a love that has no end and desires to grant you the desires of your heart.
I know, it may feel painful to even think about hoping again, you have endured much and feel like a demolition project with a crumbling foundation. But, God is the master renovator. He brings beauty from the ash pit and the dead to life.
God has eternal and immutable promises on your behalf: to heal and restore everything you have lost with interest. Today, is your day, to begin anew!
I am a wife, to the love of my life, Jade Lewis. I am a mother to three beautiful, creative grown children. I am fur mama to two amazing dogs and one ginormous love bundle cat. I am a "Steel Cowgirl" and my iron horse is a gorgeous Indian Scout 60. But most of all, I am a worshiper. I was created specifically for that purpose. I worship the Creator through and by His Son, Jesus Christ. He is my king, my muse, my passion.